Well I'm 6 months sober now and I have to say its been quite a ride. I was getting down on myself toward the end of the summer, I hate my job, I still can't manage my money worth a darn, I barely what sex is, basically I'm sober but my life still sucks, then my kids went back to their mom's (7hrs away) , and I got really depressed ,didn't want to get out of bed and didn't except for work depressed. At that point I didn't want a drink but I was able to tell myself that if I didn't do something I would eventually, so I called my doc and got put on antidepressants and per the doctors orders am seeing a therapist. Its only been a couple weeks butalready I can feel a difference and more importantly Is the rrealization that if I need to see a miracle to tell me that I'm getting better its that when I hit that low point I didn't drink I didn't start smoking again I reached for help. I'm not perfect, life ain't perfect but I'm making progress.
Thanks for reading this I read almost everyday here and benefit from your ES&H but I hadn't shared in a while.
Take care Bryan
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Obsession with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life. Romans 8:6 , The Message
Congratulations on six months sober! That is terrific.
I'm sorry that you were down earlier this year, but look at how you handled it. There was a time that you, and me in your position, would have picked up a drink. Now we have a choice in life and it's a wonderful gift.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things are working out for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Congrats on 6 months!, that's huge!. Hang in there, I could still barely speak in a meeting at 6 months and had been fired from several jobs in the first 6 months. I was going thru a divorce, trying to manage visitation, and couldn't manage money either. I had roller coaster emotions and the lows were almost more than I could take. I did also see a therapist once every two weeks for 6 months, but going to at least one meeting a day did a lot more for my mental state. The only way I survived was gratitude lists, prayers, and more meetings. The biggest cause of my mental mood swings were lack of sleep, skipping meals, no exercise, and basically no routines. Dwelling on resentments was a problem also, put those off as much as possible. After writing a basic weekly schedule, that included eating, sleeping, meals, exercise, meetings, bill paying, laundry, housework, socializing, and more meetings my mood swings settled down and I felt security and serenity coming into my life. Get involved with life (get a life). I filled in my time with unimportant things like bike riding, bowling, ice skating, basketball..... and turned off the TV. No news is good news. Making friends and hanging around with others in recovery will lift your spirits immencely. Hang in there Brian
